Just for me • Height: 5'3" • SW: 128lbs • GW1: 120lbs • GW2: 115lbs • GW3: 110lbs • CW: 116.2lbs
I’ve been at a plateau all this last week and part of the week before and this morning I woke up and I was exactly 120lbs. I’m so fucking happy with myself right now. Friday at work I got a massive headache and I was shaking and dizzy and it was awful. I’m pretty sure it’s because I had eaten so little up until that point, but even after I ate some eggs and and a that’s it fruit bar from my coworker I was under my calorie limit. I feel like I’m finally learning better self control 🌱
I’m back down to 119 lbs today. I’m very happy.
Also, I’ve been thinking of buying myself a vape? I’m looking to spend under 100$, if anyone knows anything about different types of mods would you be willing to give me some recommendations please?
I went on a cruise for thanksgiving and I knew I wouldn’t be able to count the calories of anything I ate and I wouldn’t have the cell service to look it up so I decided to let that week be the only week I’d let myself indulge in whatever I wanted until Christmas - because I know I won’t be able to eat under 800 calories each day once I’m up north with my family.
I gained about 4-5 pounds back. It looks and feels disgusting. But I’m not feeling that bad… because I know I have the self control to lose it all again in a week. I’m gonna start doing yoga every day again and try to start running as well. I can do this. I’ll lose those 5 pounds again and more. I’m gonna be 115 pounds by Christmas. And if I get there before Christmas, I’ll push my self to 110. I’ve got this.
I did a 24 hour fast yesterday. I only made it to about 20 hours before giving in - I had to cook dinner for my family because my mom’s out of town. Until that, all day I had 4 cups of green tea (my bottle holds two at once) and another water bottle with cucumber lemon water. For a first shot at intentionally fasting while having a normal and full day, I’m kind of proud of myself. Though I wish I hadn’t given in - I could’ve slept and made it to 36 hours instead.
I’m fucking gay and can’t deal with this shit
Same 🙈
Until my boyfriend actually worries about me instead of encourages me,
Until my friends and family notice just how much weight I’ve really lost,
Until none of my clothes fit and I’m forced to buy a whole new wardrobe,
Until my stomach is flat, my waist tiny, my fingers dainty,
Until I’m someone’s thinspo or body goals,
Until they say “You’re so skinny!” instead of “You’re not fat”,
Until they ask, “What’s your secret?”
Until they ask, “Do you even eat?”
Until I’m dead.
just a reminder
i. do. not. promote. eating. disorders. of. any. kind. whatsoever.
if you are trying to recover, please, get the fuck away from my blog.
the reason i have this blog is for my own motivation.
seek help: 1-800-931-2237
… The Lesbian Anas that aren’t doing it for the boys.
… The Non Binary Anas who aren’t necessarily doing it for the cute dresses.
… The FtM Anas who are doing it to appear more masculine.
… The Male Anas who struggle with societies expectations too.
… The PoC Anas who barely ever get featured in thinspo or acknowledged in general.
… The Disabled Anas who can’t exercise as easily, if at all.
… The Mentally Ill Anas who suffer from [in addition to anorexia] other psychological issues.
… The Anas that have to take Medication that makes them gain weight as a side effect and struggle even more.
… The Anas who are still far from their GW, that are still “chubby”.
… The Anas that started off or still are at 200+lbs and have to work twice as hard.
… The Anas with stretchmarks and flabby skin from weight loss.
… The Anas who will never be conventionally attractive, because their features don’t fit societies norms, no matter how hard they try.
Shout Out to all the Anas who aren’t recognised. I hope you all find peace within yourself and learn to love yourself. I know it isn’t easy. I know it’s a struggle. I also know you’ll make it out and you’ll be okay. I know you’re there. I love you.
Lots of Love, a Fellow Ana.
Wow, it gets me. Be safe.
Me: I’m gonna be so skinny. I’m gonna be the skinniest bitch you’ve ever seen. I will be under 100 pounds.
Also me: *eats a whole bag of Swedish Fish while looking at thinspo*
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